Rebirth

After my last blog, lots has transpired,my mom passed away, I lost my job, got and still neck deep in debts. Then I came to think if Im in this kind of crap , I guess there's no way but up. Making the most of my being in between jobs, I took the chance of reading self help books that I know would help build my self esteem back. Guess what...... It did a little... I guess Rome was not built in one day.. but a brick each day will really go along way. Now Im in anew job, fresh new start, Im here not just to earn, but to help my better half in resolving the problems and make life better for my family.

Sorrows for the clan

Last November 13, my mom suffered her 3rd stroke, it was a shock to the family, we looked after what she ate, her routines and medication and still she had her stroke. It is really depressing to any member of the family seeing her helpless body being examined by doctors and worry what she is feeling right now. I just hope and pray the she gets over this and we could spend much more time with her.

I thank people I least expect to be there when I need them... I wont be mentioning them but my sincerest thank you to what they have shown.

Photographs

This will be my first take in photography, hope there will be people interested... :)

You might have this......

A few weeks back, I was thinking of several behaviors that I have noticed I am exhibiting, in science they call these as syndromes.. in layman's terms they are just foolishness. Maybe you guys also experiences the following.....


LAST SONG SYNDROME - This things happen when you wake up, and the first song you hear, will be played over and over in your head, and sometimes you sing or hums it for whatever reason. The sad thing here is if the song you heard is not on your fave's list. Novelty song writers are at best when it comes to this, you would know by heart even if you despised the songs.. its just science.


SCOTTIE PIPPEN SYNDROME - It is the situation wherein in someone who is talented only reaches success if he is with another talented person, Like the case of Scottie Pippen, who are Jordan left the Bulls, never get to be champion again, another good example of this is Kobe Bryant. Your good, but not that good...set your feet on the ground Buddy.

PETER PAN SYNDROME - It is when adults like me, doesnt want to grow old, emotionally, These people are sometimes considered intelligent but they just dont want to have worries, just like peter pan, they want to enjoy child like, play, eat, mingle.. the minute they sense adult decision making they collapse.. They are the people of said the praise, " Why dont you grow up for a change".

I still need to look for some of the things that I observe, its hard to state things you dont have research..

What Ifs........

You know what, I've been sick for the past few days and even skipped worked.. I am really getting old, some sort of a minor heart problem... better cut down on porn, don't want to be caught dead, while jacking off, hehehehehehe.

While I was on the bed, I made some "serious" thinking my what ifs....


1. What if the God that we are praying for is the wrong God... Just imagine, we are praying to the wrong deity, the real one must be really pissed off. When you die, you would think you would go the promised place but ended up on the wrong side of the fence just imagine that.

2. What if you wake up one day and you are in a totally different place, just like in the Matrix Film, whoa.. it both cool and cruel, like we are just manipulated by other beings.

3. What if there are really dragons and they are living amongst us, now, It would be like rush hour every minute. dont want to caught in the middle of warring dragons. Perhaps having the transformers amongst us, is much better.

These are perhaps the effects of the medication given to me...

Quotes, you wont be caught dead hanging.. :)

I dont know whats with me today, but my love for quotes is all coming back... I enjoy quotes that drives the spirit, fires the passions, or make us fart in laughter.. I just hope my own quotes can be used in some significant way some day.. ( except for law suits). hehehehhehe

now I quote:


“I'm glad I'm not bisexual. I couldn't stand being rejected by men as well as women.”
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“I once bought my kids a set of batteries for Christmas with a note on it saying, toys not included.”
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“You are what you eat.....I'm a cunt!”
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"I'm still an atheist, thank God!"
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"Funerals and Weddings have a similarity; at a funeral there's one person who's fucked and at a wedding there are two."
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"On TV, the commercial says that 8 out of 10 people suffer from hemorrhoids. Does this mean the other 2 people enjoy them?"
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"There was once a young man who, in his youth, professed his desire become a great writer. When asked to define "great" he said, "I want to write stuff that the whole world will read, stuff that people will react to on a truly emotional level, stuff that will make them scream, cry, howl in pain and anger!" He now works for Microsoft, writing error messages."
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"I live in a bad neighborhood. Why, I saw two complete strangers share a taxi - yeah, one guy took the radio and the other guy took the tires."
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“I'd kill for a Nobel Peace Prize”
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I am Sick.......

Just as what the header states, I am sick... whether it physical or mental thats another story. But as of now I would consider it as both.

The office right now is riddled with people who are wearing thick jackets even if the air-conditioning is set to a fan. Its been going around for the past two weeks. I think the virus has caught-up with me. Bummer. Then at my parents place, the virus is rampant as well, my father is sick, one of my brother was even taken to the hospital coz he is sick as well. The law of averages applies here, I am definitely going to be sick.

Actually I am the type of fellow that doesnt get sick easily, its just so happens that I am somewhat depress that I never resisted the feeling of being sick. What I am looking for is a well deserved rest, because its the only thing, I think my present employer can give me, after I found out I am left behind in so many aspects. But hell no, they are not like that, once you are at home they will bug you with calls, and the crazy things here is that they have some psychic visions everytime they call. As is they know your in the moment that you have just fallen as sleep, then your phone will begin to ring... what a life... bring it on suckers....

So i guess, I am surely sick... I need a break, I need to get my life back... This is not worth it... believe me I know... I am in the thick of it.....